Journey Within a Journey



Walter Bjorkman is a writer residing in Maryland. He was born and raised in Brooklyn, N.Y., later tempered by two decades in Miami, FL.

This Collection of Poetry is a selection of works reflecting on his coming of age

 She made me do it . . .




~ Contents ~


Poor Man's Heaven Journey Within a Journey Just Like I Read the News
   
Switchblades and Tongues Watts Burns, I Save the World & Have Fries With That Hey! Where? Georgie Girl!





~ Links to my pages and community ~

To Fragments - Poetry To Marzy Lives On - Stories To When Out West - Stories Visit MiPO - a Community



~ Some Published Works ~



BluePrintReview #23 (dis)comfort zones - As I Awake in Silent Walk Poets and Artists(O&S)Mar/Apr 2010 - Lost and Found on the B Train in Winter
Poets and Artists(O&S) Vol 2 Issue 4 2009 - Poor Man's Heaven Ocho #27 MiPo Companion - Elsie's World
Metazen Oct 2009 - A Bupkis in Gary's Bonnet MiPo Zine Bonsai Project 2002 - Lovers of Objects Day Art



Contact Walter: wbjorkman@hotmail.com





Poor Man's Heaven



A child of the city autumns, winters and springs
this young boy spent summers in heaven
in a bungalow bare-boned but strong
built by my Father’s own strong raw-boned hands
near the shores of the Sound, on top of a hill
where dogwoods and black cherry trees abound
outhouse, no plumbing or phone, walking two miles for mail
yet this boy and his brother had no cares

Fishing in Miller’s Pond for crappies
just spit-wadded bread on the hook
where the old farmer would chase us away with a shotgun
he wasn’t really going to shoot
Scottie’s - the grocery store half mile away
in a big old wooden shack
getting the Sunday funnies
and picking only one from the candy rack

My Father, in Brooklyn, to work through the week
how he must have loved to leave on those Friday nights
we waited and watched, but always heard first
his arrival in the quiet retreat of this land
in pockets he always brought some treats
for the loves of his life
we ran out to greet him for big bear-hugs
then wait for those treats, like bony-ribbed dogs

We would hunt for huckleberries in the woods
then come back and eat them
or currants or gooseberry preserves
from the bushes in our yard
found big box-turtles to keep in a chicken-wire pen
but by morning they had always escaped
tried for butterflies and grasshoppers
but they would rarely be caught
fished the salty Sound with my Father
my first a blackfish so small
my Father’s calloused hands could not feel the tug
but this young boy’s quiet hands could

My Mother, so gentle the swallows would feed at the window
cared alone for us during the week
we washed sitting in a big old tin bucket
with water from the hand-pump
Unca Ivar, Tante Margaret and children would visit for a week
she told us it snows in Brooklyn in August every year
When the old brown Chevy was full, he would hop on the running board
one free hand waving in rapture

Screened-in porch Parcheesi on those bucolic nights
while watching the fire-flies flicker their lights
Chinese checkers, too - no one could beat my Mom
though sometimes she let one of us almost win

The last days of August were mingled with joy and sorrow
to go back to the everyday world, but
as boys we didn’t know we were poor - we were ruled by
the forces of childhood, when we felt free and protected







Journey Within a Journey



One year after
my father
the carpenter and fisherman
left my life
as my mom used the summer
to lighten her load

We flew alone from Idyllewild
before it became JFK
on a four-prop silver bird

Allan eleven going on twelve
myself only ten (and a half)

The pillars of New York
towered in the distance
as I used the barf bag
to perfection

Stopover in Gander, Newfoundland
at the edge of night and the world
to re-fuel and also to repair
A four hour delay
from the air

In early June
still a cold barren waste
two newfound young strangers
in a strange land

Nordic stewardesses
watching to see us safe
they pillowed me to sleep

The rising sun
through the window
splashed my eyes awake
to white-washed cliffs
of Scotland

Glascow to re-fill once again
the silver bird and our bellies
and quickly in to Stockholm
sixteen hours all in all
where our family
was waiting

Barefoot boy with cheek
I climbed wood piles
Jumped in hay lofts
caught perch & pike for lunch
dove into cold rushing
dark waters

Hand-milked my first cow
rode in the wagon behind the horse
trained to shit on the bridges
so the clean-up guy
knew where to look

Smoked my first cigarette
shot my first
and only gun

Saw Jailhouse Rock
when my retarded cousin
took us in to Gavle, the big city,
and we slid around
to a seedier theater
when the first one
wouldn’t let me in
for my age

She swooned when Elvis
pelvized his hips,
she a young girl of twenty
we were just amazed
at where we were

We set off from
the tiny town of Hogbo
Unca Ole, on his first vacation ever
at age fifty-six
with Allan & I
on a steam-powered train

Down to Goteberg, up to Lillestrom
we stopped and rested for the night
riding a wild mouse
at a carnival
Norwegian jugglers and clowns
in sight

Into the boarding house
entering that room
that forever stays in my mind
a picture on the wall
that I had in
my bedroom way
back home

Through the highest mountains
we passed the Seven Sisters' falls
riding through Valhalla’s walls
Trolhjem – home of the trolls
off to the ferry
in Andalsnes

Three hour ride through fjords
and around desolate coasts
foot-long hot-dogs
fresh made that day
steering the vessel
in open waters
under the Captain’s
careful gaze

Then a bus around winding cliffs
to Molde, the ‘City of Roses’
to the foot of another pier
forty minutes to Aukra
to the island
of my peers

Just seven Norwegian miles around
(about fifty miles US)
Gjetvik was the address of the farm
just that, nothing else

Sod roofed barn and chicken coop
brand new wood one on the house
birch, strong and resilient
and the hills where sheep
once often were brought
by my mother,
left behind

She once pulled a calf
out of it’s mom, with a rope
as the WWI bombs fell
on the very land
on which I now stood

They hid in the rushes
as boots stomped yards away
no father at home
he off to find his way
in the new world
their mother confined
to a bed

Kaffe here, kaffe there
kaffe everywhere
two stoned out young strangers
eating smorgasboard til ill
and trying to act polite

Finally a day to do
what they have always done
into the Viking boat we scrambled
to help feed everyone

Hand-line fishing in the fjords
with multiple hooks – count 'em - six

The shirt was really cool
in the white stripes
the smudges were Runic symbols
in different shades of blue

But no one on that tiny island
had a Kodachrome back then
my original Brownie camera
no Polaroid-Land

The boat was about 24 ft I guess
behind my 90 year old grand uncle's
humped back (yes, a troll)
the scrolled Viking serpent head

Oar powered
with wooden rollers
to rest the line
and to help in pulling
but at the moment of truth
it was pull up hand over hand

The fish were in the 20 - 30 inch range
I could only guess the weight
I pulled in two on one drop
with only a little help from my friends

Cousin Rudy pulled up a cod
out of season
we were rigged for haddock,
it was dressed for the weather

When he got it in the air
I stood up to look
it was as tall as me
and perhaps almost as heavy
but the line broke
and in a smooth splash
it disappeared forever
a life-sized fleeting vision
from the sea

Unca Ole
pulled up a sea robin
he had never fished the salt water
only the rapid streams of the foothills
for the pike, perch and brim

I yelled to him
“don’t grab it”
knowing it’s spiky spine
from fishing the waters of NY
with his brother, the carpenter
just a few years behind

He laughed, pulled it off the hook
his calloused farm hands
not bothered a whit

We caught 28 haddock that day
in four hours total
we went back and had
the best fish-boil ever

Feeding fifty relatives and guests
who came to see
their newfoundlanded strangers
from across the sea

The cast iron cauldron
in front of the house
new potatoes out of the ground
with salt and butter
flying all around

For those moments and summer
we were left without a care

To fly back on that silver bird
and face the world with no fear

It is a time
I’ll ever remember
altough it would all
tumble down later





 

Just Like I Read the News


She stood in the doorway that day in fifty seven
on that warm bright sunny morn
leaning against the sill
told us what we didn't want to hear
Children, dad died this night
we went on reading our comics
not wanting to listen

Here comes the son
there went the
sun
out of my life

Grandparents and aunts perished thereafter
but it was just
like I read the news, as a boy
I just wanted to hold his hand

Say, you want a revolution?


two died that year
well, you know
. . . .
baby you can drive my hearse
it couldn't get much worse

She sang will you still need me
when she was sixty
four years later

I thought I didn't

I was heltered and skeltered all over the place
doin' it in the road
no mother nature's son
I got blisters on my soul
while my guitar loudly screeched


Hare Rama
I rode the pony
down the long and winding road
back to where I once belonged

She stood in the doorway in nineteen eight oh
on that cold bright sunny morn
head against the sill
she told me what I didn't want to hear
Walter, John was killed

No comic books to block the pain
my guitar started to weep

and in the end
I got a phone call

no one in the doorway anymore

 





Switchblades and Tongues



When I grew up in Brooklyn, we were more wary of
switchblades than guns, pool sticks cracked on the head
getting in the way of gang fights with chains
avoided them all, now times have changed

I shot a gun once, not in Brooklyn but on a Sweden farm
the year after my Dad died, the retort kicked my butt
into the haystack behind, never shot one again
except for the penny arcade air types

I knew one guy who got shanked in the stomach
with switchblade, he lived, went on to have a normal life
I knew one guy who got cracked with a cue
almost died, metal plate in his head, lifelong convulsions
faked his suicide off The Verrazano, dumped clothes
into The Narrows, left a note; six months later
he showed up as if nothing happened

The only guns on the teenage streets those years
were zip guns, made from stolen car antenna as barrel
wood handle, spring or strong rubber band
one shot only, more dangerous to the perp
rather than victim, could wound only, not kill

My crowd would get out of problems on the streets
by using our tongues, not switchblades or guns
when accosted by the usual thugs, we gave
dissertations on why it was fruitless to engage
one guy once said to us fourteeners
"Youse guys college?"
the tongue is mightier than
the gun or the switchblade





Watts Burns, I Save the World from Destruction, and Have Fries with That



It was the summer of sixty-five. I was seventeen, had a second-cousin of twenty, of magnificant pulchritude and some bucks. She owned a fire red Mustang convertable, would pick me up on days off with her magnificent girlfriend, blonde hair waving in the sun, and, with a lucky friend of my choosing, we'd drive off to Riis Park beach, listnin' to Beatles & Beach Boys on the way, then put our blanket down next to The Fugs, the Anti-beach boys. Later our friends would show up from their 90 minute bus ride from the steam of the city streets. They had to go home the same way, sunburned and tortured with sand in their crotch, while we enjoyed the cool breezes from the open ragtop.


But that is not what this is about - this was war. Civil, foreign and personal identity war.


I had a buddy whose father was a civil engineer for a Manhattan firm. His company got a contract from the US Army Corps of Engineers to inspect fallout shelters - "protection" from the A & H bombs, in our part of Brooklyn. So he set up shop in his basement on Bliss Terrace, and hired myself and three friends, all high school seniors about to go on to college. We all had drafting experience and could handle math.


Our mission was to inspect all the designated fallout shelters in the area, determine the capacity by available floor space and amount of potable water left in the pipes after the bomb fell - they didn't account for the water needed for swathing the radiation burns, and come back and draw up the floor plan afterwards.


Rusted remnants from 3 - 8 yrs earlier, Cuban missle crises, Bay of Pigs, Khruschev's shoe, respectable republican cloth coats, the fallout shelters would never be used, the 55 gallon drums of water and food wasting away. But the real wars were now stirring at home in the cities and abroad in the rice paddies, and I could not help but be swept into it.


Realizing the futility and triviality of the job, while still being awed at the position this de-religionizing soul was being asked to assume - I developed the "Beej Method" - got a block of row houses? Inspect two next to each other (mirror images), then all the rest on the street were the same so we could all climb into one guy's Plymouth Duster and head off to Coney Island for the mid-day, ride the Cyclone, shoot some hoops, play Skee-Ball and devour Nathan's fries from the original 1916 location, seasoned by the salt air.


Then back to the basement to run off the drafts. Makin' $80 a week take home! while our buddies were hard pressed to gross $50 at normal summer jobs (gasoline, smokes, bread and milk were all about the same - .30 cents). So I bought my beloved Favilla guitar and began my life-long trek into playing, not just listening to, music, thank Dylan.


Meanwhile back on the LBJ Ranch - war was explodin' and our cities too. The daughter of the boss (an object of my wandering affections at times), worked as our secretary. She went to visit a friend in LA late in the summer - and was thrown into the midsts of the riots. Her brother was an all-star in the pole vault, held the state HS record at one point, and got his ass shot up three years later in Nam and eventually became a physical therapist.


Then there were the bars - we would inspect the basements (now that's the place to be after a war and mutilation - cases and cases of liquor all around - make those melting faces look normal.) The owner-bartenders wouldn't let us leave without a beer or two, even though we were all underage; they didn't want to get "in trouble" with the law, as if we could do anything, we had no stinkin' badges. After 3 or 4 bars in the afternoon, we were feelin' good


We also inspected the subway stations - with open air to the radiation from above, they could only be used as holding places for masses of dying humans - anyone want to call their bathroom water potable, or be the last place on earth you will see?


The army terminal down on the water - very secretive, though they had to show it to us, but under armed escort. This was a place that shipped cars and belongings to officers overseas. The troops departed from here also, Elvis to his Germany vacation some six years earlier, and now boys to Asia for a permanent vacation. They had an escape tunnel for captains and higher that had pontoon planes ready to be pushed out to the Narrows and let them fly up there as the mushroom clouds blossomed, as us regular folk did a deep-fry down on the ground - that's when I realized this was serious business. Planning to survive our own destruction, or at least for the priveleged few and the masters of war.


Back at the office - the daughter comes back spewing hate out of her beautiful lips about the niggers burning and looting - I had just come back from my first march on Washington against the war, and for civil rights. I was losing my faith, wanting sex, to which the church just said no, and Brigitte Bardot said yes, this is good - and I exploded in a fury that had me on my knees declaring my disbelief in established gods, politicians and the hypocrasy of the bill of rights. Suffice it to say the daughter lost my attention, and I lost hers.


Then my sympathetic, poetry reading girlfriend dumped me for the boy next door - I was getting weird, and although she was the weirdest of the young ladies I knew, it was in a much more innocent way than me, her foundation intact. So I was losing my religion, any imminent chance at sex, but discovering ideas and feelings that struck an innate chord inside me.


Village nights, seeing the soon to be Richie Havens playing on the street in front of the Village Gate. BS&T at the Bitter End. Tom Paxton, Eric Anderson, Dave Van Ronk, Ginsberg, Kupferberg, the banned Pete Seeger all reinforcing my emerging world view. Muddy Waters, John Lee Hooker, Sonny Terry & Brownie McGee all in the small clubs where I could go to get away for a while from the bull. Dylan electro-fryin', real-words writin' to Newport Folk, and change music forever.


Winds-o-war stirrin' - friends becoming enemies, as I headed off to college thinking I'd be studying moon rocks, but wound up with Dostoevsky, Baudelaire, ferlinghetti, Eldridge Cleaver, Allen Ginsburg, Walt Whitman, Keats and a handful of new, nefarious friends.


Gratuitous Cosmos-Soul Connection Reference: As I headed off to college, in the fall of that year, the brightest comet of the 20th Century, Ikeya-Seki appeared, seemingly headed off to another galaxy, Andromeda, much like I felt my soul soaring into the uncharted Universe.





Hey! Where? Georgie Girl!



The Decade of Myth didn't start
with the year six-oh
nor did it stop with the one
ending in six-nine


It started in sixty-three
with the death of Young John the Debaucher
and ended in seventy-three,
with Sir Dickie the Trickie's departure
we all got that straight? - solid, man!

I met the Fair Maiden Georgie Girl
on an Ivoryton Sixty-Nine summer night
my Boys of Summer campin' cross the lake
as were your hippie-chicks

Welfare and rich, mixin' & matchin'
in each other's sleeping bags
thirteen year old Elke Sommer's kid shackin'
up with the Gypsy Queen's daughter
so we figured why not us too

While my tongue was in your nethers
on that misty-meadowed night
and yours on my fair lance
I felt another on my foot
thought "How can she do that?"
I had to give a glance

In the heat of a passion
I look back and see
that a goat of the pastures
decided to make the scene

"Man, you know what yew got there, compadre?"
said old Ed the cook - "just one word, man
you'll understand, she goes to the same
school as Jackie O's kid!"

Your name was Georgette, your brother's Carroll
I should'a got the clue
but we talked not of backgrounds
we just wanted to screw

That mescalined night in the pond
skinny-dippin with three others
in front of the Ivoryton post office
doin' it in the road
an early train-spotting with cars
none came, we did

Man - we got two days off - where we gonna' go?
it's the weekend of a gig on Yasgur's Farm -
but we had not enough time for the show

Off instead to my poor man's heaven
on the other side of the LI Sound
meeting those children of god
all going the other way

Starry, Starry Night
we slept, talked and did the nasty
where I, in innocence once
built a raft of driftwood
to take me twenty miles across
to the shore from which we ferried
escaping my Father's demise

"Wake up! Wake up!"
roust the commie, preppie, philosopher, jock and hippie
I had one of each sort in my troop
Neil the Man's about to take his midnight walk!
we herded them into the mess tent to see
the moon violated by mankind's knee

Back in the City, you One East End Ave
me from across the Gowanus
riding the subway to the stars
wondering what I was doin'

your nanny plopped with a death thud
to the floor above us
in your private-elevator duplex
as we were loving in full window view
of the 59th Street Bridge - that wasn't groovy

You off to bucolic Pine Manor in Brookline
with your mama's Standard Oil money
me back to CCNY turmoil
in Harlem on my night cabbie's pay
visits on weekends, further apart -
we did start to grow away

One last stab - I your debutante escort
at your coming out debut
for the Grosvenor Ball in the Plaza
you were both loathe and loving to attend
four months after you first came with a man
or rather this boy from across the facts

Dine with a Kennedy here, a Lindsay there
under a blanket in a horse carraige ride
in Central Park, thereafter
you sneak into my room
for our last bedding

Remember back when we got kicked out
of that snooty Boston Common's hotel
for me refusing to wear a tie?
you laughed all the way with me
to the cheap shack up the block

Time driftwooded on, we left each other
my only contact with your world
became the green of the bluebloods
as I ferried them around the town

We met again in seventy-two on Mass Ave
just up from the Coop
me with my Nancy girl, you with
a Japanese artist, your Yoko
spurning your parent's wealth
he hair down to his calves

Maybe we had an effect on each other,
maybe the Sixties mattered
or maybe we were all just
Fools on the Hill





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                                                                                                                   Copyright Walter Bjorkman, 2009

 

                                           Published by Walter Bjorkman, an On the Wall Production, 2009